Undecided....

I am still undecided on what to do for college...and it gets me so annoyed that I still havent decided what to do. A person from UTPA called me from the ROTC dept. asking if I wanted to go to orientation tomorrow...and I think im going. I just think I am, I called my partner in crime and the person who pushed me to not let my "bf" get the best of me and we are going tomorrow. Hopefully we will wake up early enough to go...hehe...i think its going to be pretty hard for me to wake up...im such a lazy bum. Life is so confusing...and it annoys me that i sometimes just space out and i tune everything out. Its my life that I have to think about and here I am still trying to think about what to do. I know that I wanted to Major in Criminal Justice, but then again I dont know...what if college isnt for me? It annoys me and im afraid of failure, and being just another flonke and being the same failure like my other siblings....fuck, i hate this...